Questions That Keep Me Up at Night

It has been over a month since I stopped posting. Was there a reason? Maybe or maybe not. I would like to say I was busy but I was not. The truth is that I have been avoiding writing.

I have been avoiding it because there was a lot on my mind: thoughts that questioned my journey and the future.

I took a month off for the sole purpose of figuring out the pathway I wanted for the future. My current journey looked unclear, foggy, obscure, ambiguous, and possibly, “nonexistent”.

And after the month went by, I found myself in the same position; I failed to find the answers for my questions.

I am still lost. I am still worrying. I am still questioning

Therefore, In today’s blog, I am going to try something different. I am not here to share an experience or a psychological fact, but share about the questions I currently have regarding my future.

These questions are the questions that are stuck in the back of your brain.

The questions that morph into a paint worst-case scenario with cruel precision. The questions that creep on you at night. The questions that you constantly think on but find no answers. The questions that circle endlessly.

What career do I want to pursue?
What happens if I try and fail?
How long would it be to achieve my goal? Or will I ever be able to achieve a goal?
What is my goal?
Do I even have what it takes to succeed?
What does success look like?
What if it is too late?
What if I don’t get into a college?
What if I don’t figure out my life by my 20s?
What if I let down the people who believe in me?
Will I have the courage to take risks, or will fear hold me back?
What will make me truly happy?
Am I doing enough right now to prepare for what’s to come?
What am I not doing?
What if others get way ahead of me?
Do I have a passion?
Am I wasting time worrying instead of taking action?
What if I already miss my opportunity in picking a path?
What if my future doesn’t look anything like I hope it will?
What if I lose my purpose in life?

It takes courage to share questions for which you haven’t yet found answers. Yet, I am sharing these overwhelming questions for several purposes. First, it’s a way to vent and release the weight of uncertainty. Second, it’s a hope to connect and empathize with others who may grapple with similar thoughts. And third, it’s a chance to look back in 10 years and see if I’ve found the answers I once struggled with.

You might find it surprising how many questions we find in common. So remind yourself, everyone stumbles along the way.